I clicked on the Youtube button. My mind swirled with uncertainty. I pushed back anxious thoughts, refusing to entertain them, but aware of their ever-present taunting.
I must fill my heart and mind with praise, I thought as I wiped yet another tear.
How many times have I offered this same suggestion to my friends? How many? Too many times to count. And now I was faced with the same choice: Do I praise God simply because of Who He is? OR do I wallow in the miry clay of frustration and fear?
I chose to praise.
As the holy melodies filled the room, the tears flowed. Cleansing. Healing. Pressure relieving. From the broken places I heard the Lord's sweet whisper, Nan. Come and sit with me awhile.
Yes, Lord, I whispered back. I'm not very good company. I'm afraid, Lord. I don't know how we're gonna make it. I don't know what we should do.
Why do you worry, child? Do you have enough for today?
Yes, Lord. You've taught me this lesson before, haven't You?
Yes, I have.
I'm sorry, Lord. I took my eyes off of You and looked at the problem. Open my eyes to see You once again. Please, Lord. Stir up faith and hope in me. Remind me of Who You are.
I AM the Lord Most High. I AM Jehovah-jireh, your Provider. I AM your Comforter, Counselor. I AM your Father.
There was a pause in the conversation as I pressed into His Love. And then I heard His whisper again, And you, sweet child, are Mine.
"Then I will give them a heart to know Me, that I AM the Lord; and they shall be My people, and I will be their God, for they shall return to Me with their whole heart" (Jeremiah 24:7).
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Nan, I love your post. I love your transparency. You share your true feelings, and yet you share the solution. Praise. Yes, you've shared with so many of us just to praise Him for who He is, but in the flest that's not always easy. "When you can't praise God for your circumstances, just praise Him for who He is." Love you, sweet friend.
ReplyDeleteThis is a life-changing lesson to learn, for sure. Thank you for your sweet words. Love you!
DeleteThis post blessed me so much. Yesterday was one of the worst days ever. It made me question not only my future profession but also myself as a person. I am still learning that when things go bad, give it all to God. My friends still have to remind me this at times. Wonder who those friends are ;) Thank you for sharing your feelings.
ReplyDeleteYou are growing by leaps and bounds, little Rose. AND you're gonna make it because you are not alone. The Lord Most High is with you every step of the way. And me :) I love you!
DeleteThank you my sweet friend, my sister, God knows i am truly in a broken place but isn't it wonderful to know he is there with me and with you....I love you angel...keep praying...as I am for you...<3
ReplyDeleteThank you, Nan, for sharing from your heart even in your struggles. I needed this. How I can relate. What a blessing you are. A reminder that in our weaknesses, His strength is made perfect.
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