I hit the fallow ground hard with the hoe. Dirt sprang up with every blow. Weeds surrendered to my hand.
And I watered the earth with my tears.
Unimaginable anguish gripped me.
Life has been coming at us so hard lately. Not only us, but those that we love. It feels as though everything is tumbling out of control. We have a very uncertain future. Someone we cherish tried to take their life. False, evil accusations from someone we considered a sister-in-the-Lord attacked the very core of who we are. This avalanche has consumed us within a three day stretch.
This morning, I didn't know if I could survive the enemy's assault.
As the day went on, I attacked the garden space with angry fervor. I pounded the earth with my hoe, weeping with gut-wrenching sobs. I ranted and raved about everything. About nothing. I caught myself proclaiming to no one but the spider clinging to the neighboring milkweed, "Everybody leave me alone. When I'm in this much pain I cocoon. I go into my cocoon and build up walls of safety around myself. I build a fortress all about me. So leave me ALONE!"
As sure as the sunrise, at that moment, I heard the Lord say, "Nan, I AM your fortress and your shield. It is IN Me that you live, and move, and have your being. In Me."
"The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; The God of my strength, in whom I will trust; my shield and the horn of my salvation, My stronghold and my refuge; My Savior, You save me from violence. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised; So shall I be saved from my enemies" ~ 2 Samuel 22:2-4
My fortress.
In HIM I will trust.
Indeed.
SELAH
Father, Indeed, you are a mighty fortress, a strong tower where we can run and find safety. Hide me Lord until these calamities pass us by. Shelter my precious friends and protect them from the enemy's assault too. You are so faithful and good. I trust You, Lord. Thank You for surrounding me completely with Your sweet Presence, keeping me safe, keeping me sane, and giving me hope. You are an amazing God. Praise Your Holy Name!
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What a heart-wrenching picture of our hurt and His power to heal. Please know you are loved, dear Nan. You are making a difference in many lives. I'm so blessed to have you to remind me of Who He is: my fortress, my shield, my redeemer, my Savior.
ReplyDeleteI was so happy to see your name pop up. Thank you for stopping by. And thank you for your encouraging words. We've been riding the rapids the past few days, but the Lord reminds us to "Fear not. When we pass through the waters we will not drown." Thank the Lord for His faithfulness. I love you.
DeleteI needed this today. You knew just where I needed to be ministered to. Love you!
ReplyDeleteI love you Jamie girl. You're so precious to me. Thank you for your sweet words.
DeleteNan, You, my dear, are a treasured friend. Sending you prayers of PEACE in the sweet name of Jesus. Even in your weak moments you find the strength to share with us? You never cease to amaze me. Sending you many hugs. Redeem them when you need them most. I love you Nan. God bless you.
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